I continue to wrestle with certain things and situations.
Most days, I am okay, finding rest in the arms of Jesus.
Some days, I struggle a little more and today was one of those days.
My mom stopped by tonight.
Later, I was sitting outside in my backyard,
feeling the sprinkles of light rain,
looking up at this beautiful rainbow while I talked to my mom on the phone.
She told me she could see my discouragement earlier today.
A short while later, I went back inside.
A tiny while after that, I noticed our back door was open.
I immediately knew that our cat had escaped.
Mr. Mustard Seed and I began searching the 'hood.
No sign of the missing meow.
She's a 100% indoor cat, so the level of discouragement
I'd been feeling began to escalate.
It was about 8:30pm and we were losing daylight.
Mr. Mustard Seed started to walk around the block.
I slipped inside the garage- maybe she was hiding in there?
A short while later I heard tiny voices in the driveway.
The boys? Couldn't be. They were in bed, right?
As I stepped out of the garage,
I heard the Fantastic Okapi shouting,
"Paris! There she is! We found her!"
(They are really super heroes, you know!)
I scooped my little bundle of fur up and brought her inside.
The boys and Jed are now fast asleep and
I've had some time to reflect on the day, and the things I've been feeling.
You see, today is my sister's birthday.
She would have been 32.
When I was little, I used to go out into my backyard and talk to her.
I miss her.
I often wish she was here.
Earlier today, while I was at the park with Jed and the boys,
I found myself thinking,
"I'd love to see a piece of you today."
And then the day erupted and
I got distracted, blinded by my circumstance.
In the quiet, stillness of my house tonight,
my heart sang praises to Jesus.
I thank Jesus for loving me,
for never forsaking me,
for comforting me, holding me, giving me peace.
I thank Him for the cross He's given me to carry,
the trials that may come my way-
He will use these things to draw me closer to Him.
I realize that it's my own sinful way of wresting with things that causes
unrest and discouragement in my life.
It's only when I hand my trials and troubles over to Jesus
that I am able to find peace, rest and comfort.
The song, "God is Able" has been playing in my head tonight.
"Greater than all we seek,
greater than all we ask,
He has done great things....
God is for us,
He has open arms,
He will never fail us,
for the Lord our God is able."
Here's a video of one of my favorite bands performing this song- please listen:
She is celebrating in heaven with Jesus.
And you wanna know something really special?
God sent a rainbow today- a little piece of heaven.
"God is with us,
He is on our side,
He will make a way.
Far above all we know,
far above all we hope,
He has done great things"