The Green Owl spent some time coloring churches earlier this week.
It really made me think about how GREAT God is.
Sometimes it's easy to get lost in every day life-
how often do I pause enough to really reflect on God's greatness?
To see my boy's drawing God's house, singing God's songs...
it's a blessing to be their mom.
Shortly after The Green Owl was born,I read Britt Merrick's book, BIG GOD.
Britt Merrick is the founder of Reality, a pastor, husband and father.
Britt's daughter, Daisy was battling cancer during the time he wrote BIG GOD.
She is now resting in the arms of her Savior.
I'd like to share an excerpt from BIG GOD with you-
taken from the chapter called "When My Heart is Overwhelmed"
*Love Him More than Anyone or Anything*
"As I walked through this trial with Daisy's health, one of the surprising things that happened over and over is that my spirit erupted in worship. My heart would suddenly break out into worship of God and who He is- not always out loud, but always real. I don't say this to boast. I say it to testify that Christ is more wonderful than any other person or relationship. My mom taught me at a very young age that she loved God more than she loved me. That affected me profoundly. It helped to keep me from creating idols out of certain relationships. We've taught our kids the same thing. I can't tell you how many nights I've put Daisy to bed and said, "I love you, Daisy. Daddy loves you more than anything in the world." She always corrected me, "Nuh-uh, Daddy. Not more than God. You love God more than you love me. And I love God more than I love you." That's the most wonderful thing you could ever hear as a Christian parent. Part of the corrupted human side of us feels a cutting when we hear our children say, "I love God more than you." Part of us worries about what our children might think when we tell them that we love Christ more than we love them. Yet this is the first and greatest commandment. If we fail in that one, we're failing all of them. I have been tested in that as I walked through this illness with Daisy. Are you obeying that first and greatest commandment, the one found in Deuteronomy 6:4-6?
Hear, O Israel! The Lord is our God, the Lord is one! You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your might. These words, which I am commanding you today, shall be on your heart."
When I first read this, it was a huge reality check for me. How would my boys answer this? I knew I didn't want to raise my children up with myself at the center of their universe. How weak am I? How sinful am I? How deceitful can my heart be? The greatest thing I can do as a parent is to raise my children to place God at the center of their universe... to build a strong foundation on His Word and His promises. He is the ONLY one who will never disappoint. Never betray. Never change. How GREAT is He?!
But, reader, I must confess- there's a part of me that has failed with this commandment... and I believe I failed without even realizing it. As a parent, I am rooted in God's word, his truths, his promises.
I am committed to following his commandments.
But as a whole, I have not upheld the greatest commandment as He has commanded me to.
You see, up until this year, I had a mission in my life...
What was that mission, you ask...
Well, I wanted to make sure the people in my life always knew
how much I loved them... It was a really big deal to me.
I wanted them to feel thought of, cared for, and most of all- loved.
I wanted them to know I would always be there, that they could trust me,
that I was genuinely invested in preserving and growing our relationship.
And then life happened, as it usually does, and things spun out of control.
People fell out of my life- the very people I lived to love.
I didn't understand. My questions were left unanswered.
If I loved them so much, how could this happen?
Huge reality check, my friends. HUGE.
I feel like 2012 was a year of battle for me.
I continually threw my heart at the feet of mortal relationships,
only to have it trampled and stamped upon.
What was I doing wrong?
Was my love not enough to keep certain relationships alive?
Quite simply, I didn't understand.
Looking back, I see myself as disobedient.
I see myself breaking one of God's greatest commandments.
I see myself living each day to show PEOPLE how much I love THEM.
Surely that's going to lead to disappointment.
Surely that's going to lead to heart break.
Surely that's going to lead to discouragement.
I don't want this post to seem confusing- of course it's good and right to love people, but we can't forget God's greatest commandment in the process.
God calls us to love him first and most- above ALL things.
Above all people.
Friend, I'm happy to tell you that the pain I endured
last year was not without reason. (It never is)
I know that last year happened so I could rightly prioritize the loves in my life- with my Lord and Savior, my best fried at the center.
I've realized that my mission in life should be making sure
I live each day loving God the most.
I want people to know how much I love HIM.
I want my life to glorify Him in every way possible.
He is my prince of Peace.
His the calm in the storm. He deserves my praise. He deserves the best of me.
I am happy to accept the mission He has given me.
This page is dedicated to living my life on mission for the King of my heart, and planting seeds of love and hope along the way.